Growing up, my mom hated Mother’s Day. Like many Muslim moms my mom would say, “every day is Mother’s Day in Islam.” And shes’s right, because in Islam mothers are highly revered. As the phrase goes, paradise lies beneath the feet of your mother. Since Mother’s Day was not really celebrated in my family, I didn’t pay too much to the holiday, that is until I became a mom myself. Motherhood & parenthood are these awesome clubs you don’t fully understand until you join. Nowadays, anyone who knows me knows how much I love being a mom and how much I love Mother’s Day. For me, it’s about appreciating this experience I’ve been blessed with. Having a child of my own has also allowed me to appreciate my own mother in a new light because now I can truly understand the struggles and sacrifices she made.
I think it’s safe to say everyone knows how obsessed I am with my daughter. Whenever I’m out and about Kamilah isn’t too far behind. It’s crazy to think I birthed my own best friend. I try to think back to life before Kamilah, pre-Kamiliah as I call it, and it just seems like a lifetime ago. It’s amazing how the center of my world is this tiny human who has only been in this world for about 3 years. Since Kamilah has come into my life, she’s changed my world for the better. All that I am and all that I hope to be is motivated by her. Having Kamilah has taught me a lot about myself and has allowed me to mature in ways I could never imagine. In my darkest days she has been this ray of sunshine. She truly is love in the purest form. Working in the field I work in, we often discuss self-care tips so as to not let the work we do impact our mental health. For me what gets me through my toughest days is knowing that my daughter will be there to cheer me up. Nothing compares to having a tiny human be so excited to see you and tell you about their day. I often reflect on how blessed I truly am that God has chosen me to be her mom. Being tasked with the responsibility of shaping a human is one of the greatest gifts and the biggest joys in life.
Motherhood is phenomenal and I hope anyone who wants to be a mother is blessed with the opportunity, but don’t get me wrong, it is hard work. Not every day is hugs and kisses. There have been days where I have cried out of frustration because my toddler wants to fight and cry about everything; whether it’s not wanting to eat, refusing her bedtime, or her just being tired and not wanting to nap — believe me, it has its challenges. As weird as it sounds, motherhood has taught me to be a little selfish. By that, I mean that it has taught me to place my own needs first so that I can be the best mom to Kamilah. Mom guilt is too real and it’s a constant struggle but you have to find balance. All in all, I’m truly blessed to experience this journey. It has been the greatest thing I’ve done in my life thus far. And to my beautiful baby girl: you are the light of my life and my greatest joy. It’s so surreal being your mom, but you are my heart in human form and I am beyond blessed to have you. Thank you for all that you have taught me about love, motherhood, and about myself. I’m honored to be your mom.